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There are a few different ways to keep track of what happens when you actively do something to lose weight, change your body shape or whatever your goals are. One of my main goals is to change my body shape. It is very difficult to see for yourself, especially when you basically never see yourself in a full body mirror.
I belong to it where the group of people who are stressed by the number of kilograms and centimeters. This makes it undeniably harder to know what is actually happening, but I have a pretty good view of my clothes. Sometimes I think I wish-see when I think that a garment fits differently, is starting to get big or that it is noticeable in some other way.
But today discovered I something completely new.
I sew all my clothes myself. Today I finished with a thin unlined coat-like thing. I have another in the same pattern, and it has sat over the ass in a certain way. When I tried the new one with buttoning and everything and – actually, looked at me in the full body mirror, I saw that the ass is smaller. And then I mean quite significantly less.
Judge my huge surprise. I've always had a huge ass, and seeing it decrease is something I actually do, honestly, could never have imagined me. I have not really reflected on it, because I have very baggy pants, especially now during the summer, but as soon as I start wearing long pants again I will take another look in the mirror and see what the hell it looks like back there. 😀
I met one friend a few weeks ago that I have not met in a while. The first thing she said was that there really is a difference. Of course, it's great fun to hear, even though I myself have those nasty delusions about my body. But I have begun to accept the fact that the change I am looking for will probably not happen in the order I would like.. It seems that everything happens from the outside and goes inwards – in other words, it is noticeable in places like shoulders, obviously the ass, the scope – and that the form itself comes later. I simply have to be patient and accept it.
Otherwise can I gossip that my knees are working better and better. Now I can make one pidgeon pose (for you who know what it is), which I could not just a couple of weeks ago. Of course, it can be even better, but it's a position I had not imagined my knees could handle – in much the same way as garlands pose. I can also walk significantly, much deeper down in warrior 1 and 2, as in godess pose and chair pose.
Now that it It's been almost seven months since I started my daily yoga, I have come so far that I want to start challenging myself a little. For example, for a few days I have been doing my yoga without Youtube, to be able to do repetitions and positions without feeling stressed or distracted. I want to learn new positions as well, so that I can get better at this and hopefully achieve better results eventually. And by that I do not mean just physical.
What I think that I should start to be a little more aware of is to use yoga as meditation. Yoga with Adriene is more practical than spiritual / meditative, although in most of her clips she has a special focus that she talks about during yoga. But I would like to go a little deeper than that, and with a direct focus on myself (obviously, because I'm doing my own yoga). I have some things I want to change my mind about, and using yoga as meditation around these feels like a fantastic thing.
Because I am after all, such a person who is completely convinced that body and soul belong together. You cannot influence one without influencing the other. I'm far from a pure-blooded person, but what happens in my psyche, my soul, affects what happens to my body and vice versa. If I can influence what happens to my body through how I think, I would be extremely stupid if I did not make a little extra effort to be kind to myself. That book I'm reading will be of great help there.
Seven months with Yoga has undeniably made a big difference. There is a lot to take off, both physically, mentally and spiritually, so my journey will take time. But I happily and willingly admit that I am immensely happy with the progress and changes that are taking place. Not to mention grateful – for many reasons. Partly that something is actually happening, that I go on and on, and that it does not go too fast so that my brain and my emotions have time.
Fi fan, what I deserve the world's biggest pat on the back by myself for this. Oh, what I'm good at. ♥