I like to think about things. I also like to question things – sometimes just for the sake of it.
I nerd myself into some things. Other things I am extremely uninterested in.
I have also become a climate change aunt, despite mine so far, in the context, young age.
On this blog you can read most of what fits in my world of thought. From social criticism to beauty 40+ to embarrassing stories to…
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There are many disadvantages to having sickness benefits. Primarily; it's not very much money to begin with. When you also for some reason happen to mess with it, it gets even worse. If at the same time you need a larger amount of money to invest in something that is real, really needed, it will be very difficult.
I'm in one such situation right now. I have told you about how my yoga has affected the body. I have lost three bra sizes – and soon a fourth, judging by the bras I got home at the beginning of the week. You think that a new bra should be able to be buttoned at the far end and then, the more stretched it becomes, buttoned further in until it is so stretched that it becomes too large. This has not been the case for me since I bought my first smaller bras about six months ago. The ones I have are getting too big, I buy a size smaller and when I get them home I can button them in the middle or at the bottom right from the start.
Right now is all my clothes too big. I have two pairs of pants that are still ok, but since I expect the body to continue to change, they will soon also sit so loose that they fall off without a belt. I have quite a few pants, but even the pants I have not used in a long time are quite, far too big.
This is a very frustrating phenomenon. On the one hand, I am insanely happy, because it means that yoga gives results. On the other hand, I am very cracked because I can not afford to buy fabric at home so I can sew new clothes that actually fit ok. I would really like to buy a larger stock of fabric at home, so that I can sew new as I go. I kind of do not know where this journey ends, when the body feels satisfied with what it looks like. To my great delight AND horror, I suspect that there is a bit left until it is “finished”.
Between the thumb and the index finger I would like to buy fabric for somewhere between seven and ten thousand bucks. It would give me a basic supply to sew off for a couple, three years ahead. I get extremely stressed from not being able to do that. For example, I'm thinking of next summer. All the summer clothes I have will be perfect, way too big at that point. And I really mean – all. Only a whole summer wardrobe will go on at least a couple, three thousand. If I also think about jackets for spring / autumn and winter, I get even more cracked. This year it will go with what I have, but next winter I guess I will completely drown in the jackets I have.
And how fun is it?
I do not know how to solve this. I do not know how to raise money so that I can invest in fabric the way I want. To buy a home at a time – and, sure it works. But it will also be expensive, because I will have to buy a new home more often, and then it gets expensive that way instead. I would really prefer to buy lots at home in one go, and refill with minor purchases from time to time.
Men – just no may I sit here in my chamber and ponder this. Hopefully it resolves itself in some unexpected way. I might get a secret admirer who sponsors me. Maybe I'll win the big house on Lotto. No matter what, I'm in brooding mode for now.