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Now I have been practicing yoga daily for over three months. It's a great achievement to be me. Some days I wonder if it would be good to combine it with some kind of cardio. Today I sat and searched a bit on Youtube, and today's post is about what I came up with.
Too little ten years ago I became super sick with my bipolar disorder. At the same time, I burned out quite a bit. I attended a course for professional cultural practitioners, and I remember the last time before the summer – we met and had coffee together. By that time I had already realized that I was in really bad shape, and just being there made my stress level go up. We're talking the fastest pulse, narrow trachea, blurred gaze and so on – but not as in anxiety, but just – stress.
Since then has a lot of water flowed under the bridges. Today I am relatively stable and in comparatively good condition (everything is relative). But it's been a long time since I decided I wanted to live slowly. Ideally, I want to live and work in a completely different way than I do today, but I do not have the money needed for it (house in the woods, type).
Due my stress intolerance, yoga is a fantastic way for me to exercise. It is an introverted form of exercise that not only gives physical results, but is also good for the mental and the mental.
Today I peeked a little on a couple of workouts with Zumba and something with pilates cardio. And you know what? My heart rate goes up in the unpleasant stress-intolerant way at once. Every now and then I realized that näh, I will not devote myself to training that uses fast, hysterical music or where fast movements are included. Not when I get stressed just by watching.
And yoga is consistent just with how I want to live my life. I want to live slowly. I want to have time to experience and feel. I do not want to rush and stress through days and weeks. I move fast enough through time anyway.
Best of all I want to live in a house somewhere out in the woods, without neighbors and loose people. I want to live there with my animals (preferably more) and possibly one or two good men. I want to live and breathe with the earth, the forest, the air and the animals. I want close, dear relationships – not many, but enough to make me feel satisfied.
It is possible that one fine day I will be more resilient and tolerant when it comes to stress. But until that day, I intend to continue to actively choose a slow life. I want to swim calmly through life. I want to have time to think, reflect, enjoy.
In all honesty; I want to live in a way I do not today. I live as best I can as I want, but instead of a house in the woods, I have an apartment in town. I want more animals – today I do not have room for more than maybe a cat OR another dog.
But yoga. I want to exercise it – and I do, in addition. An active choice for many reasons – among other things for the slow and thoughtful. ♥